Well, you may have read in my last post that, although I have high hopes, I sometimes underestimate myself. I do not disagree… I do doubt myself and have an underlying habit of telling myself that I am not good enough. I spent an entire weekend undergoing leadership training and this is what I uncovered. What I did not realise is that this so called weakness has served me very very well. I set my goals, no one else but me. I raise the bar all the time. And because I am afraid of failure; tell myself I am not good enough, I set out to prove myself and ladies and gentlemen, I win by a thousand miles that some people cannot believe it! My weaknesses or flaws have served me very well and I owe my success to “not being good enough”. I own this weakness, therefore I can do something about not being good enough; I can stop being so hard on myself because no one else sets or even knows my goals but me.
One thing that really holds me back is simply the way I am. I tend to get in my own way. See, I am actually an introvert, which is why blogging is great for me. In my line of work though, I work with people everyday and relationships are important. I am happy to lead behind the scenes, in fact, when my work is done, most people are not aware I was even there. They say “I did this myself” and that’s they way I like it. The down side is when I find myself in the face of adversity I freeze, I shrink, I choke and I back myself into a corner almost paralysed. That is me, I avoid confrontation so much that it paralyses me.
But it is 2012 and time, dear friends, that I take this bull by its horns and put my brand on its a$$ with my hot iron.
How am I going to do it?